Sometimes, life sucks.

Hands you lemons so to speak.

And sometimes you can't make lemonade, so you just have to drink the juice and smile.

You can't get bitter about it, that serves no purpose. After all, that's the way the cookie crumbles sometimes and if it didn't we'd be spoiled brats.

The good news is, that the lemon juice is great for your skin/hair and the cookie crumbles will go great with icecream.

So logically the best thing to do is, give yourself a facial and eat some icecream, and ride out the suckiness til there is that GREAT day that makes up for all the sucky ones.

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I have decided I am very tired.

This in turn has made me very upset, over trivial things, which means I'll put it out of my head eventually which will of course make me feel better but only after I've had some sleep.

And mostly I feel frustrated. Because I'm having to write this paper, that I theoretically don't need to write, but feel expected to write (yes I said expected. And you know very well that I always strive to live up to certain expectations.) And really all I want to do is sleep.

So there.
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You probably wouldn't worry about what people think of you if you could know how seldom they do.
Olin Miller

*laugs*

It is so true. ANd the sad thing is most people care vastly to much what people think, when in reality you aren't important enough for most people to think about.

Of course there are always those friends who do think about you, but if they are true friends, with a few exceptions, it won't matter what you do or how you dress or where you shop so long as you remain true to who you are.
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The world is governed more by appearances than realities, so that it is fully as necessary to seem to know something as to know it.
- Daniel Webster


Smart man.

Who needs red pills anyways?

I'l write more later as pertaining to vacation, life, babies, and first week of school. i'm headed for a nap.

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Hello fellow wanderers, I'm writing from Delaware!

Vacation is turning out to be a blast. Mo Shearc keeps us busy, he's slightly regretful of it, but I don't mind at all, it has been great fun meeting all of his friends and getting to see him around friends he's had all his life, his parents are fun, very sweet.

It has been a growing and learning experience as well, for me. Maybe not so much growing/learning new things, but having them hit home, you know? You know how you hear something your whole life and it just takes the right moment and circumstances for it to just make sense, yeah, that.

I like who I am when I am around M.S. he makes me want to be better, to be the best, not just for myself but for him.


Schools just around the corner, I like my courses this semester, my schedual, while not prime, isn't bad, friday classes.... bleh... but it is a small price to pay for the rest of the sweetness of schedual.

I am out people I have people to help places to be

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To know.... is not divine?

My dear readers, I'm sorry I haven't written in a while. Mostly my fault as while I have had much to write about, even in this medium of relative anonymity I find it difficult to express my self on certain subjects, mostly personal, to those I know do read this blog on occasion.

For the first time in my life, I just don't know. And it scares me to death. I LIKE knowing, what's just one step ahead, what's going to happen, where i'm going. I thrive on knowledge.

But I can also see (now, not a few weeks ago though) how this is good for me. I may have no idea what I am doing with my life, and I'm scared to death I may never achieve whatever it I would like to, even long to achieve, but it's ok.

I know, I know, you may now stop looking at the screen like I've lost my mind. I mean... I may have lost it... but that is moot, as that would probably require me having one to begin with.

It's ok, because my dependence on knowledge and my manic need to know hinders what Christ want's to do in my life. I don't like it. It's not comfortable for me, and I'll probably still fight it in some realms. (cough Mo Shearc cough) but I'm going to try, and that in and of itself is a big step for me.

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Bleh. That is how I feel today. Bleh bleh bleh. double bleh.

And I'm not fond of it. just so you know.


Sometimes I just want a break from life.

Vacation time from life? Why yes, i think i've accrued several weeks in my life can i take them now?

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